message in a bottle

Friday, September 28, 2007

oh-my-god

[hmmm...interesting...]

The Bottom Line

Today you discover a new type of romance. Evaluate whether you want to pursue it.

In Detail

Connections can happen in unlikely places -- and with unlikely people. Today, in circumstances beyond your control, you may find yourself talking to someone you never would have considered talking to before -- and it could lead to a new type of romance. You possess a magnetism that will only grow in the coming weeks. Take people seriously when they flirt with you, and give them a chance to show you what they can do. There is a real value in giving people the benefit of the doubt.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

this is my now

by Jordin Sparks

There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell
Hiding from myself
There was a time when I was so afraid
Thought I reached the end
But baby that was then
Coz I am made of more than my yesterdays

This is my now
And I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then
This is my now

I have the courage
like never before
Yeah
I’ll settle for less
But I’m ready for more
Ready for more

This is my now
And I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then
This is my now

This is my now
And I am breathing in the moment
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see
My fears behind me
Gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then
This is my now

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

a bandaid over my heart

[I still believe in love...still believe that somewhere out there, he is waiting for me...someone special who would take care of my heart....this song captured what made me hold on for 3 years, despite everything...i know i'll get to feel this again, now with the right person who would make the scars feel like it was never there]

When I see You Smile by 112

Sometimes I wonder

How I'd ever make it through
Through this world
without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue
And sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free
Then I see you reach for me
Sometimes I wanna give up
Wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
AND then i see you baby-
everything's alright-
everything's alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me
Oh yeah

Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew
heyyyy
And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me now
AND ONE LOOK AT YOU BABY
It's all I'll ever need
It's all I'll ever need

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining
right through the rain
When I see you smile baby
Baby when I see you smile at me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
and everything's alright
and everything's alright
it's all right

When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain
Yeah
When I see you smile
I can face the world
Oh you know that I can do anything
When I see you smile
Oh yeah
Baby when I see you smile at me
when i see you smile.. smile
aaaattt me..

Thursday, September 13, 2007

a must-read on falling in love

[Thanks Moja for this link....everything makes even more sense...see you soon!]

It is a mystery why we fall in love.

It is a mystery how it happens.

It is a mystery when it comes.

It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience.

Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share.

And just as life is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share.

More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely, moves away.

When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again.

They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love, and to accept it.

You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love her, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don’t choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead becomes someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away..

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reasons for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it choose to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

Nerburn, Kent. Letters To My Son


Tuesday, September 04, 2007

am i a survivor?

I'm back.

I'm writing this post while bopping my head to the tune of "Because of You" by Ne-yo. Sometimes, I become so grateful to music. I feel I'm getting better every minute dancing along songs like this.

So uplifting.

I'm okay now. Somehow. Have exhausted all tears from my body from the shit hole I went through for almost 2 months now.

That shit, shit, shit hole I will not allow anyone to put me through again.

I learned so many lessons. I know I'm not there yet. I still have a long way to go. Still have a lot to learn and realize. But at least I know I am learning. I have to. Or else, I won't get out of here. I know I am more than that. And now I can somehow say, I am quite ready to move on with my life that he paused.

Damn. Got so wrecked in the whole process. I truly, honestly thought I will never get out alive.

I was literally close to dying. And I'm putting that on record. My mind and body already died at that time. The pain was just too much. It was too much.

It was too unbearable for someone who's one fault is loving a person with all she can.

Am getting happy again. Thanks to all the angels surrounding me and who never left my side. Who never doubted my strength even if I know I have none left already.

My family.
My friends.
My classmates, whom I am starting a new adventure with.

Blessings I will never, ever trade for anything else. That's for sure.

Am so looking forward to my despedida. Can't wait for my life to start again. Thanks Jojay.