message in a bottle: June 2007

scene stealer

I know, I know. I am blogging away all my frustrations. Why?

- I'm trying to cleanse away my crazy head with all possible scenarios
- I'm detoxing all the paranoia
- I'm trying to get to my happy box, unsuccessfully I might add
- I'm replacing morbid thoughts with bright and happy things

If I don't write, I will have a nutty!

It might be just the hormones but then again, I am psychotic that way.

Neurotic is my middle name.

nicole fan

Absolutely love her...even in her bitchiness...

till the day that we die

Ride
When we ride, we ride, its till the day
That we die..x2

Its real late about a quarter to 1
And I'm thinkin of everything we've become
And I hate it, I thought we could make it
But I'm ready to dead this
Just wanna forget about it
I saw the pictures n the letters she sent
You had me thinkin you were out
With ya friends, I'm so foolish
Played me like I'm stupid
Cuz I thought it was just you and I

Now I look back on the time that we spent
And I, see it in my mind
Playin over and over again..
It's pourin down, you got me breakin down
And I just cant figure out why
But this is what you said

When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
We used to say
When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
When we ride...
I remember what ya used to say
When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die..

Visions in my mind of the day that we met
You showed me things that
I'll never forget
Took me swimin in the ocean
You had my head up in the clouds
Made me feel like im floatin..yea
To the think of it
When you know its the truth
Nobody else can do it quite like I do
All my kisses n my lovin
Aint nobody better then us..yea

Now I look back on the time that we spent
And I, see it in my mind
Playin over and over again..
It's pourin down, you got me breakin down
And I just cant figure out why
But this is what you said

When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
We used to say
When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
When we ride...
I remember what ya used to say
When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die..

I guess its over indeffinatley
But you and I kno
It's not that easy to let go of everything
That we had and start all over again
Just blame yourself cuz you blew it
I wont forget how you do it
My sweet baby this is where the game ends
Now, somehow, wanna believe
You and me we can figure it out

When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
Oh boy, I wish that you could hold me
When I'm lonely when I need someone
To talk to, you were phoney
Just like everything you told me
When we ride
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die
Boy, you forget about the promises
Made me, and now I let the memories
Fade away, but I rememeber what
You used to say
When we ride...
I remember what ya used to say
When we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die..
We ride..when we ride, we ride
It's till the day that we die..

bummed out

What can ruin a supposedly perfect vacation?

- rainy weather
- delayed flights and ferry rides
- getting your period a few days before the trip
- arguing with your "friends" due to their claimed "spontaneity"
- knowing that your boyfriend would rather follow their plans rather than the one you made
- how you can get to be so stupid paying for everything

lonewolf

Being one those souls endlessly roaming the earth, alone and lonely...

yep, replaceable

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don't touch
And keep talking that mess, that's fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time
And It's my mine name that is on that Jag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I'm such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn't know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool - Talking about
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I will have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

So since I’m not your everything
How about I'll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left

To the left
To the left

Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he'll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

love her dress!

urban decay camping kit

so me

THE CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not the weaker sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions.

She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.

She hates plastic and an artificial flower because it makes her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and its scent. She loves a guy who wears after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your jeans one month before washing it, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her.

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. It's better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face.

She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character and not by certificate shown. If you cannot show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talks about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there.

If you go out on a date with her, try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is a cool type and will not nag, so it's easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappointed. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "luck".

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be pleased. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

Endearing/positive qualities:

Ability to set and work very hard towards their goals (workaholic and have ability to stand nights without sleeping).

Vulnerable when in love as due to their over logical nature, they can’t balance their emotional side and it can deeply overwhelm them. When they have outburst it may scare you.

Qualities that can drive you a bit crazy:

Too over friendly that will drive the love partner crazy with jealousy Suggested ways to show endearment: don’t ever try to tie the person down, give space (u see, there are certain people that can be very friendly with others but they heart only belongs to one person. so don't worry. Because worry also no point. Once his/her heart is not with you, the person will definitely leave. No point of holding on, anyway)

Zodiac in which they develop mutual understanding: Virgo and Taurus.
Zodiac in which a bit challenging and need more patience and understanding: Cancer (potentially explosive combination- I have witnessed far too many that I feel there is a need to forewarn), Aries and Libra.

5 more months

Wow, as of today, 5 more months and we'll be celebrating our 4th year together.

Wow.

Happy Monthsary to me!

ha!

Jail Visit to Paris Left Nicky in Hysterics

Nicky Hilton's dress has the same print pattern as mine!

Take that, you fashion critics-wannabes!

Shut your pie hole if you have nothing better to say, comprende?

miss you much

Again, nostalgia rises up on me.

It's weird how a feeling of loneliness amidst a floor full of people make you want to run towards the other direction.

I absolutely hate it.

These past few days had me stressed (again!) over things I should not really be caring about. Heck if they don't care about it, why should I right?

This is not an in-your-face, you-owe-me moment but yes, sometimes, you just want to do that for them to realize what they're doing to you.

Okay, so this isn't my most holy deed but then again, they're men and no gentlemen at that.

Want to see a man who disses a woman? Go here and meet them for yourself.

Oh well, it doesn't surprise me since a prime example already is how one of them has treated his martyr of a girlfriend.

All bark, no bite kiddo.

And when my closest friend here leaves, I will be stuck eating alone because my so-called friends don't even bother to ask me to join them ever since they step foot here.

Geez, I want to shout at myself. Grow up.

What do I expect from these guys anyways? They're so juvenile.

They don't respect their relationships, much less their better halves. How can you expect they treat a "friend", right?

I miss being with my boyfriend. Even in that hell hole of an office.

At the very least, every end of the day promises a breather with him being there.

Just a glimpse of him in all the craziness makes everything worthwhile.

I just wish he is also here with me, saving me from all of these. All the unnecessary stress, all the stupidity of them.

I just wish I wasn't that helpful, getting "friends" on board and leading better lives.

I would have probably been happier.

One of those regrets.

scenario

What's worst than a group of gossipy girls?

Men who does it.

retro chic

Love her dress!

realization

Being highly emotional about a lot of stuff.

Worrying to much of what one does, what others may say and what the future holds.

Always walking on eggshells, trying to please and make everyone happy.

Hope this time, it's going to be about me...

star comment

"Love is something you work at.
It doesn't come easily.
There are going to be bad days.
You are going to have to work at loving someone when they are being an idiot.
People think they're just going to meet the perfect guy.
Don't be ridiculous."

- Kelly Clarkson

safe and secure

What makes someone secure?

Is it the amount of money he gets to accumulate in this lifetime?

Is it the sound of a hello from a family member who is living far away?

Is it a comforting hug from a loved one you haven't seen for a long time?

Is it that reassuring "i love you" from a partner after every hardship conquered?

Is it fame and popularity?

Is it a spoken promise of being loved no matter what, whoever and whatever temptation came along the way?

What?

In this lifetime, in this time now, I don't think there is any way of feeling secured.

Everyday, every time, you encounter something that would shake the ground from beneath you and make you slip, thinking if there's someone who will catch you.

Everyday, every time, you meet someone who seems fitting in his life, and you feel that unwanted and unsolicited threat of what she is, has and can offer.

And then, you're shot back to the reality that you can only protect your heart from so much, and yet it would still feel pain. It would still hurt deep, down inside.

You try so hard to fathom the idea that of course not, you are here now. This is you and him now. Nothing else can ever take that away, because you won't let it.

little girl lost

"Nobody was as wild as Lindsay," he says. "But Nicole came close. Sometimes Paris Hilton would be there but the most I saw her do was drink and strip.
"One night Lindsay and Nicole were making trip after trip to the bathroom -- she wouldn't snort in front of me because she knew I'd get mad.

"But the more wasted they got the less she cared. In the end they carried in a mirror from the bedroom, laid it on the coffee table and emptied a mountain of coke onto it. They went at the stuff with straws, hoovering it all up then piling more on."
- Lee Weaver, former Lohan bodyguard

star comment

"Try not to take your time on earth for granted....
Death waits for us all.
The only answer is to get out there and live each day."

- Bruce Willis

dumbass

This David and Goliath brand and label is really funny! I am so hooked on it!

With their witty tags and semantics, you won't feel the truth behind the humor unless you've experienced it yourself.

Say today for instance, I noticed a group of guys huddling and giggling like pre-schoolers obviously giddy over a girl.

And to think they claim they are very much devoted to their girlfriends.

Cut the bullshit guys. Who are you convincing? Us girls or yourselves? Please.

Even with our eyes closed, we can feel when a man is not entirely saying the truth. The frustrating part is how guys can make it seem like its a proud thing to say when they're not living testaments to it anyways.

Believe me, 90% of the guys I know who have girlfriends look at other girls as if they're single.

90% of these guys even has the nerve to profess having this huge crush over a girl - a team mate, office mate or whatever the case may be.

Bottom line, they don't tell the truth and even if they do, it's too late for us to believe them anymore.

I am just hoping against hope that when the time comes and it's the reverse, these guys would learn how hard it is to trust someone who does not even have the decency to say the truth.

Beware of a girl's instincts.

We know when a stupid team mate gets too close for comfort with our boyfriends.

We know when a lame excuse for a drinking sessions involves stupid and flirtatious girls (who, by the way, has nothing better to do with their lame lives)

We know when a stupid girl who wants to look innocent is the contrary.

We know when our boyfriend went out and had fun with some random girls we haven't met before, just because.

We just know. So stop pretending like we don't.

i want this get-up

MADE IN THE SHADE photo | Ashlee Simpson

got you thinking

From Tampupot:

Who should be blamed when a leaf falls from a tree?

Is it the wind that blew it away?

Or the tree that let it go?

Or is it the leaf who grew tired of holding on?

cuties

david and goliath

my love affair with David and Goliath:

setting in

does it really come a time when you feel as if a person does not really need you?

whether it be in his life, as his love, or in the future?

or is it just the setting in of paranoia, becoming this bi-polared person not knowing minute after minute of what you're feeling?

is this valid?

or just plain crazy and unnecessary to think and feel about?

is it okay to ask questions?

or just it hamper oneself in enjoying how wonderful life truly is, regardless of everything bad in it?

is it just over-analyzing? over-thinking? and over-assessing?

probably.

just enjoy. drink in the moments life gives you everyday.

the chance to be with friends, have a stable work

the chance to enjoy family

and the chance of having let someone come into your life, a stranger you've gotten to know for 4 years and more and soaking in every minute you learn things about it him.

whether good, bad or ugly.

names names names

I've been keeping a log of cute and inspiring baby names, but only in mind and not in writing.

So for me to keep track for future use (naks!), I'm putting some here.

BABY NAMES (regardless of gender) too cute not to be used:

1. Ainee
2. Avery
3. Mischa
4. Brent
5. Candace
6. Kirstin
7. Violet
8. Villette
9. Happee
10. Peaches
11. Maleehna
12. Blake
13. Hayden
14. Hailey
15. Caitlin
16. Danelle
17. Ginger
18. Paige
19. Piper
20. Parker
21. Brett
22. Trent

BABY NAMES I wouldn't dare give a kid:

1. Fiona (my friends would know why, hehe)
2. Patricia (reminds me of bitchy girls and terror teachers)
3. Christian
4. Joy
5. Anna (an ex, don't ask)
6. Tess (sounds too motherly)

weekend shebang

I spent the weekend, what else, working.

Since I'm on my last shift ever, I didn't actually mind since I'm gaining a day-off out of it anyways.

After months of not seeing my dear 'ol friend Clauds, we met for dinner and shopping. Gosh, missed her so much!

Of course, all we did was talk about life and love and clothes and shoes and work and everything else under the sun while shopping away our hard-earned pays.

Short of saying I have no moolah left hehe.

Before meeting her, I shopped away my sadness around the bazaar area and went home with:

- 2 Hollister cut-off pants in army green and khaki
- 1 Banana Rep purple blouse
- 1 Genes baby-pink capris
- 1 A&F pink hoodie blouse
- 1 RL navy blue tee
- earrings

Clauds and I also bought, as corny as it may sound, a "friendship bag" - identical bags we will use.

We decided on buying a crisp, pearl white Chanel chain bag and it's such a darling to look at.

Both clad in summer shorts and flats, we continued to scour stalls after stalls, looking at summer dresses and tops we can try on. Thirsty, we then decided to cool off with fresh coconut juice drinks and hit the stalls again.

After a few hours, we looked around the Promenade for a place to have dinner and decided to try out Peri-Peri Char-grilled Chicken House.

The chicken is fantastic! Grilled to perfection, you can also choose 2 sidelines (that's what they call it) that comes along with the meal, which at a few hundred bucks is not so bad.

I had mashed potato and buttered veggies with mine while she got mashed potato and coleslaw with hers.

Then its off to the drinking sessions, where as patrons, we got VIP service in this grill house at the 2nd floor. Chechar, Clauds' better half, joined us there afterwards.

And so, despite me being completely bummed out because of the stupid summer outing my boyfriend went to, I had so much fun bonding with my friends.

There really is more to life than having a love life.

I was still bummed about it until yesterday, when I learned my martyr of a boyfriend agreed in driving those bitches to and fro Batangas, Sucat and Cavite.

Such poor planning if you tell me.

This bitch who owns the stupid van didn't even have one single thought in her puny brain when she proudly volunteered her stupid van, which they had to return to Cavite after using!

Hello?!!!

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Oh well, no sense draining my little left energy over that stupid girl.

I'm going shopping later.

brutality

"There is no faithful man,
Just a patient and stupid woman"

green in me

SO TRUE!

Step 1: Select Your Favorite Color
Simply look at the colors below and pick the one that you prefer to view (not necessarily the color you use in dressing or decorating).

Step 2: Get Your Results
Now that you've chosen the color that you prefer to look at, check out the corresponding description below to find out what this says about your love style

-- and the way that you relate to your version of Mr. Right.

If Your Chosen Color Is Green...

When you first meet a man, your practical and nurturing ways encourage him to talk about his life right away. You make Mr. Right feel comfortable. He feels that you fully support him.

It's easy for you to see exactly what's important to a man from the start. Trust your instincts, along with your keen listening skills, because they help you understand what a man wants from a relationship.

Intelligence in the other sex is a real turn-on for you. It entices your curiosity.

In the end, you marry or commit for security. This might mean having a home with children, lots of money or a relationship in which you feel cared for. Your permanent Mr. Right will be a stabilizing personality in your life. "Greens" marry the stable guys!

One word of warning: You are open to the world and appear innocent, and these qualities can make it difficult for you to find your true Mr. Right. Some men misinterpret you altogether and later may be shocked or disappointed when the real you isn't what they expected.

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Thanks to TinaPie's blog!

message in a bottle

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

scene stealer

nicole fan

till the day that we die

bummed out

lonewolf

yep, replaceable

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

love her dress!

Monday, June 25, 2007

urban decay camping kit

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

so me

Friday, June 15, 2007

5 more months

ha!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

miss you much

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

scenario

retro chic

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

realization

star comment

Friday, June 08, 2007

safe and secure

little girl lost

Thursday, June 07, 2007

star comment

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

dumbass

i want this get-up

got you thinking

Monday, June 04, 2007

cuties

david and goliath

setting in

names names names

weekend shebang

brutality

Friday, June 01, 2007

green in me

If Your Chosen Color Is Green...

multiply

gossipy me

social butterfly

total escape

shopaholic me

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