finding sanctuary in writing
With a trembling, she types away her feelings in a little box.
A box that would later on resemble a mere thought, a feeling, and encapsulates everything that the world doesn't seem to hear nor know.
She's crying again inside, unknowingly pouring every bit of emotion in those battered keys. All the pain that overflows deep within her heart and can no longer be covered.
A patch, a needle, a string....something to enclose this flow of sadness that runs through her like water down a stream. Ever so raging, never calm nor pacified.
If her heart is to be placed under a microscope, the ever relentless beating would show a tattered membrain holding on for dear life on a single strand of vein.
Hoping against all hope that somehow its owner would eventually experience true happiness and let her heart take a rest forever.
living off caffeine
It's the end of the Christmas holidays and the start of the New Year celebration...
Yep, I'm here at the office, slaving away with office work....
After the much-hyped up (too much if I may add) company Christmas party, people started going their separate ways into vacation mode.
A lot has bid their goodbyes and see-you-soons for next year and to some, like me who are stuck here, has to endure the agonizing (?) pain of waking up early in the morning again and live off the much appreciated coffee of Starbucks.
Yep, after a much-needed rest and hiatus from stress, I am back in full swing with my early mornings here at the office, having to face my laptop screen yet again.
After recharging by battery over the Christmas holidays, sleeping well around 10-12 hours each day (yum!), here I am again, zombie like and waking up at the ungodly hours of dawn. Oh well, on the dot it is right?
Then when New Year holidays kick, I wil get sucked in again with the joys of sleeping. Which I know I wil be deprived once again in an instant.
With the help of the friendly neighborhood baristas, who never fails to greet me with their 1000 wattage smiles in the early mornings, my whole and entire energy depends on their masterful skills of making my daily caffeine fix.
With a macchiato in hand, I walked out of their quaint coffee shop with the hopes of waking up one day not looking forward to drinking another cup to last me for the day.
ho ho ho
Wow...it's been quite some time since I laid my hands on this keyboard and with this blog as my blank sheet....
It's the mid-afternoon of our impending christmas party. Everyone is on the edge, either anxious, nervous or excited for tonight's festivities (?).
I'm actually not sure what will happen later but it seems that all of the people here are SO looking forward to it.
This would be my 2nd christmas party with this company. I'm still not used to it. I'm used to getting all harrassed the day of the party and later on get really psyched up since I'll be having a good time with my boyfriend.
He had his christmas party last week.
So anyways, just a few more days till the merry christmas day of the year. The day most people are looking forward to especially if you're the type who gets tons of gifts (or money) every year.
Goodness...today is Wednesday and christmas is already on Monday next week.
Just a few trickling days to go...and add 6 more days...it's already my birthday....
over my head (cable car)
by: The Fray
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
And everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over...
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
how to save a life
by: The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
